Hard Days

Some days as a parent are hard. I have a hard time with the hard days. I get really down on myself because I get frustrated or impatient with this tiny little human who can’t even tell me what is going on.

Today I was trying to put Kade down for his first nap and kind of knew that it wasn’t going to go well. You can just tell… And I didn’t respond well, which I am not proud of looking back on it. He ended up skipping his first nap which is usually a much needed break for me to recharge. I had to hand him off to Kyle because I went from calm to just completely overwhelmed in the span of like 10 minutes.

Kade has been having a few hard days. On Tuesday he got his first of the two flu shots, not looking forward to the second one in a month… We think he is teething. He is on the verge of crawling. And he wants to walk ALL DAY EVERY DAY but can’t do it by himself so we have to be hunched over to help him. And I can’t be hunched over all day so when we sit down to play he just gets SO frustrated.

I know this will all pass but dear heavens I am SO tired. I am mentally tired from trying to figure out what he needs and physically tired because I am carrying him and/or hunched over all the time. I get sad because I am trying to enjoy every moment, I know I will blink and he will be 18, but I am also like… can you please crawl already?!?

My mind is also going 2,000 miles an hour about raising a kid, the election… Everything politics going on in our country is making me really anxious. I feel helpless and don’t know where to start to help.

Tomorrow I will wake up and just take the day minute by minute and not think about anything but being present. I am hoping that will help make me feel less overwhelmed. Plus it is Friday and Kyle will be able to hang all weekend!

Thanks for reading!!

Love, tired mom, Tasman

7 thoughts on “Hard Days

  1. Tasman you are a wonderful mother. It is okay to have all these feelings. As a parent of older children sometimes I still have feelings of guilt, frustration and anxiety. It’s okay. Try not to be so hard on yourself for how you feel. The first few years are the hardest especially because we don’t sleep as much as we would like :). I love you and I think Kade is luckiest little boy to have you as his mum. Luv mum.

  2. “I know I will blink and he will be 18′ – No, try not to think like this, it just adds guilt or regret to your plate. Each parenting phase presents its own struggles and challenges, you can only enjoy the positive bits! There is nothing happy and worth savoring about teething (that’s like embracing the moments you experience a headache) – yes, we want to see joy in everything but it’s ok to say that right now such-and-such is HARD. It’s ok! Your love doesn’t lessen when you say that hunching over a toddler hurts like hell. You sound like an absolutely amazing mom and your little one is lucky to have you. 🙂
    Also, all the political stuff is wearing me out, too!! 😐

    1. Thank you for this!! It is just hard in the moment to put it all in perspective but today has proven to be a MUCH better day. Also, I tried to follow your blog and I can’t find a place to put my email or follow you, I would love to get updates when you write!

      1. It definitely IS hard to put things in perspective when everything’s going on. Glad you are having a good day! 😊
        Hmm, you should be able to follow my blog by email from my sidebar, either on desktop (right hand side) or mobile (from a blog post, scroll all the way down and you’ll see widgets). 👍

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